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I see you in my dreams. I have since I realized that you are the one that I want.� For some reason,� and Irsquo;m pretty sure I know the reason. But you are always on my mind. Obviously Irsquo;ve had others on my mind. Thatrsquo;s just a given.� However you just have this thing that keeps me in awe. Itrsquo;s just something that I want. You are the girl that I want.�

I leave you alone, so that in a way. We donrsquo;t stuff it before you leave. I know that if I keep this distance for now. It should pay off. Why wouldnrsquo;t it??� �I want to see� you and I do try to. But you are the one that is busy and has other plans. So its no fault on my side. Just bad timing. �Maybe thatrsquo;s a good thing. Or something that happens with me.� It does seem that timing on my part, does suck most of the time. Haha.

The dream I had was you at your going away party. Instead of having blonde hair it was brown. I knew it was you but nothing really happened. It was just a normal party. Then something happened. We were in a like a stunt factory.� Jumping on soft foam things.� Then we were sitting down, and laughing about what we were doing. I can see it clear as day. With your hazel� eyes and� your blonde hair. You lean on one arm and come that 50 closer to me.� I shift my weight and move towards you. We both know what we want.� I come that inch thatrsquo;s just far enough away from you. Our eyes meet and I roll my tongue on the edge of my lips and see you smile. It fills me full of anticipation and passion. �I look you in the eyes again as my right hand move slowly up behind your neck as it glides through your hair. I smile once more and move in closer. Our lips touch. Her luscious lips give me that shock that goes down my spine.� I donrsquo;t want it to stop and I open my eyes as she starts to pull backwards.� I want her to come closer, but not now. I know that she has to leave. She smiles at me.� I sit there still. Unable to move.� She gets up and starts to leave. Then turns and smiles, brushes her hair backwards and blows me a kiss. Then turns and walks into the darkness.
Thatrsquo;s the end of the dream.

I wonder about you all the time.� Its just one of those things. I also see your car everywhere I go and all I do is think about you. ��I really want you to leave.� Only so that you can come back home.

Wersquo;ve spent some time together. Not as much as Irsquo;d like. But enough to give me and Idea of what and who you really are.�� And now that is what I want.� You and you only.. .

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HI whatever i post ytd, you guys can just ignore itapos;s just an emotional ppart of me
i had cried out everything already.
today is a brand new day.
tomorrow will be even better man hahahah

i will be fine.
today sermon is about leadership by charleston :DD
umm. Frankly speaking, i don wna be a leader.
cause i knw im not a good influence and blah blah blah blah blah.
no one will trust me with things too
haha who cares? i don want either.
i will be very proud then.
and ignore all my friends..

im fine with who i am now.
don ask me go on diet, chanege my appearance or whatsoever.
im really fine with who i am and how i look like now
i dont need outsiders comments unles you are rie other den tt, good bye

i hope time will really stop at the time when we are all having fun
stop right there so i will get so tired of fun that i want to sleep.
after i wake up, i hope time will go back and back to the time when we had fun
but i knw its impossible life is about moving on.

i had learnt, not to be a burden anymore.
but whether i will not be a burden anymore will be another story












if only they come find me, visit me. One day, all about me. It will be enough to last me throughout mywhole life on earth
if only they will. Just one day, all about me. 24/7. When im no longer thinking about if im a burden to others but they will come to me and love me. Thats all
look at me for once talk to me like im a princess for once don let me hear anything bad about me for just once once once once will do.
and let me not cry even when iapos;m hearing happy songs. Just one day make me smile even when i hear sad songs will you?
thank you.



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natalie
23 going on 16
Chicago suburbs
leo / atheist / pseudo-intellectual

iapos;m an avid reader, i drink smoke, iapos;m a halloween fanatic.
music: 80s alt., goth, doom metal, jrock/pop, freak folk.
i have a twisted sense of humor.
and an anxiety disorder.

my lj: basically a written account of my days nights.
i post photos of food, friends, and just general coolness.
i consider myself a "low-maintenance lj friend".
i appreciate comments but i do not require them.
i comment when i have something valid to say.

and now, the fandoms:
flcl, dennou coil, jigoku shoujo, paranoia agent, air gear, soul eater, sayonara zetsubou sensei, cowboy bebop, rahxephon, gurren lagann, samurai champloo, lucky star, nana, minami-ke, lovely complex, tokikake, shin chan, high school girls, pet shop of horrors, studio ghibli, and stuff like that.
iapos;m also completely addicted to the food network. And...gilmore girls.

so thatapos;s a bit about me. Comment if you want to be friends.

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240 pounds Gotta love a scale that goes down :)

So now that Im looking better and better and S is totally out of my life, the search for a new Daddy and Dom truly begins (i felt weird really looking while still pining for S; now that i know all hopes gone, i can move on)

Met J this morning and meeting F soon. J and i are in similar relationship situation, F might have a prob but we will see. It would be great to meet someone whos both daddy and dom but i know thats a longshot. I never met 1 beofre, whats to say i can meet 1 now? although one never knows, does one?�:)

todays food:� i was a bit bad... Had tuna and 2 pieces of bread for breakfast
a bit too much chicken and rice for lunch
2 apples and almonds an hr ago
im hungry today� J and i are having dinner at applebees-- he knows about my diet and effort to lose weight... Lets see how he is about wnforcing stuff

i think im loving life again�:)�


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Iapos;ve fallen so hard.
I canapos;t get out now.
I hope theyapos;ve fallen too.
For me that is.
I miss someone Iapos;ve never met.
These feelings I have never felt.
And in one moment it can seem like everyone is abandoning me all at once to leave me with my thoughts and nightmares.
How long do I�have to wait to understand this?
an hour?
a day?
a week?
a month?
........a year?

Iapos;m sorry if I was a ho bag before, this is just so new and youapos;re so awesome and Iapos;m such a dork.

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my mom hates sarah lawrence but i found their admissions letter intriguing:
"As you begin thinking about the college admission process, wondering how to distinguish yourself from other college applicants, we at Sarah Lawrence have been thinking about how to differentiate ourselves from other institutions... Most Sarah Lawrence students have one thing in common: they are passionate about their interests. Students here care deeply about the academic subjects they study and the art they create. They donapos;t mind being called intellectual, and they question everything. The time they spend with teachers matters as much to them as the time they spend with friends. They assume mutual respect in relationships, and tolerance in the community."
two yearsapos; worth of sarah "gay in four years or your money back" lawrence cocaine/orgy/hipster jokes to undo with my mom, but i do like it. And iapos;m scared that bardapos;s not going to want me for my lack of interest in math and science - their website wonapos;t shut UP�about how theyapos;re�trying to change their reputation -�and my shittiness at calculus and anatomy and my spazziness and god i donapos;t even know.



aghggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggh. But really all i want is to be accepted to bard right now.

also for the next two weeks to not suck as much as they sound like theyapos;re going to.

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